Ain’t Comin’ Out! Don’t need the world to know, Don’t need to let it show. There's a new me here, Don’t matter if I’m queer. I'm completely positive I just gotta live. Yes, I’ve been to hell, No, ain’t livin' in a shell. But, no need to shout it out, Cuz, I ain’t Comin’ Out! …
Z0006
Blogcast - Channel Z0006 Dreams occur at a level of description nearly impossible to describe to all of you so intoxicated by the waking life. There is nothing wrong with being intoxicated any more than there is anything wrong with drinking. It may be appropriate, because everyone else is doing it. Nevertheless, you may wreck …
Over (and over (and over (and … ) … ) …)
I, Cycling Rick, my roommate and best friend for many years, had this idea of recycling. He'd say that we would repeat the same events over and over and over, like we were caught in some sort of a time loop, until we learned the lesson we needed to learn. I thought the idea was …
Z0004
2007.1031.1005z0004 {I feel silly sometimes doing this. First, the voice? Rather pretentious. But my internal voice is always cutting me down. “You’re a failure, Larz. Nothing to offer. You would have made it by now.” I really am sick of that voice and at least this one is something different. I am going to try …
Z0003
2007.1030.0122.0003 {I asked the channel to comment on Judgment, which was a writing & thinking project I had been assigned.} Finding ourselves at the crossroads of time and space neither prepares nor dissuades us from the task at hand. As we have said, we are not alive. Or to say that is our life is …
A Newer Direction
Last night was just too much for me and I didn't sleep well. One factor was how angry and hopeless I felt. The second was probably the Diet Mountain Holler or whatever brand the Mexican grocery store that I shop at sells. Two issues are apparent. First, "we're our own worst enemy" is a trite …
The Chinese Feast
宴 = The Feast 432Hz is supposed to be some miracle vibration. I used to listen to Alan Watts on a Sunday afternoon radio broadcast, many many years ago. Put the two together and I should experience some sort of nirvana. I found such a YouTube mix, turned it on and went to meditate in …
The Void will drive men to insanity…
All I remembered is that I had referenced Z0265 in the blurb on the last Channel Z0135. I popped this channel into a text-to-voice reader, a very nice one at ttsreader.com I might add, and wasn't sure at first why I picked this channel to do next. Then I heard the first blurb that piqued …
#MeToo, Too
The first time I had sex was in 9th grade. I was lying flat on my back, my legs suspended in medical stirrups with a urologist talking dirty. I had my eyes clenched shut as he asked questions. "Did I know what masturbation was? What did I like to think about? Did I enjoy cumming? …
#MeToo
Let's go back in time ten years ago. Channel Z0135 opened with: We know you are not mentioning your eating issues right now and that is going to be a test, we feel, of your willingness to be true to your deeper sense. Just remember, whatever you do or decide not to do, whatever you …